Up until last week, I thought deployment was my biggest problem. That changed very quickly when I received the worst news to date- my sister's unborn baby passed away at 35 weeks old. Out of respect for my sister, I will not discuss the details on this blog.Even after having the services, I think part of me is still in shock today. We just had her shower a few weeks ago, and her due date was the 26th. It's one of those things that is so devastating that you just can't believe it.
I've felt every emotion under the sun. My sister is the closest person to me, so I felt like I was going through it myself. People say everything happens for a reason, but I've struggled to come to terms with why exactly this did happen.
Needless to say, my feelings towards deployment have changed drastically. I feel like nothing worse can get thrown at me right now, and all the little things that were bothering me are now things to not be concerned with at all.
It's one of those situations where no one can say or do anything to make this better, but the amount of support we've received has been amazing. Just knowing how many people have been behind us does help to ease the pain.
It's also one of those situations that makes you truly understand how short life is. If anyone takes anything away from this blog, I would want it to be that you try your best to not have regrets, and understand how precious life really is.
Oh god Kate, I'm so sorry for your loss =[ I read this and it brought tears to my eyes. I'm here for you, we all are. You're such a strong girl though Kate. You'll get through this deployment also. Nothing is harder then losing someone you love. We should get together soon for lunch or something. Not until Mike leaves of course. You need to spend as much time with him as possible. Stay strong girl <3
ReplyDeleteThank you Gee! We will absolutely get together once Mike deploys. You've always been a great friend to me <3
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